Reflections, intentions and lessons from a lap around the sun
At the end of 2017 I stared to think what I wanted from 2018. I invited a few friends over and we made vision boards. I wasn’t particularly surprised with what I found myself drawn to.
In the centre of the board, my word for the year and my way of summing up all of the above while still leaving room for the unexpected. Wild.
I met Gala Darling and Angela Gallo. Ive had coffee dates with some incredible business women. I assisted at a retreat. I spent time in Queenstown eating more Whittakers than I care to admit. I launched my website. I deep dove into my own personal healing work. I cuddled Professor and kissed my husband. We drank wine on the couch in front of the fire. I fell in love with linen dresses (with pockets!) I discovered Korean Sheet Masks. Ive been blessed enough to be invited into homes and hospitals alike to document important births, milestones and moments in time. I binge watched Sense 8. Photographed my first wedding. Found myself a spiritual running buddy. Ive made new friends and farewelled some who I know I had grown apart from. Ive tried, Ive failed and Ive brushed myself off to start again. I left my comfort zone on numerous occasions and made peace with the fact that sometimes its necessary to return to that comfort zone before stepping out again.
The biggest lesson I learnt in 2018 was to stop seeking outside of myself, for validation, for flow, for perfect. For the ‘next level,’ the perfect deal, the perfect mastermind, for 6 figures, or an email list of 5 million people. Of needing to post to social media 3 times a day. I learnt to embrace my way. To share my message in quality over quantity because there are plenty of voices unafraid to share their message and the truth is, I know my message is as important as me. That might sound like a strange thing to say. Did I mean to say my message is more important than me? No, its not more important than me because I needed to have these experiences that I have, I need to have these skills that I have, these interests, this passion. Its not by accident. It’s divinely orchestrated. In order to share this message I have to acknowledge that im worthy regardless of this work. The irony is not lost on me that I was shouting from the rooftops ‘you’re worthy’ without living into it myself. So here is to awareness and stepping into living our best lives however that may look and as my beloved Rilke says:
Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything.
So here is to always living the questions.
Although I am a fan of both brevity, I wasn’t able to refine my intention for 2019 into a single word so instead I’ve chosen two:
Nurture(d) + Nourish(ed) - its how I want to feel, its what I want to provide to others. Its not about food so much as deep, soul nourishment. Are my purchases in line with these values? Does this dollar im spending nourish a fellow woman in business? Does this nourish my future? My community? My creativity? My spirituality? All of my decisions in 2019 will be anchored with these words.
Do you have any new years rituals? Intentions? Have you refined your values? Id love to hear more so feel free to comment. email me or tag me in your instagram post.